This was supposed to be posted somehwere in May..Can't remember what I wanted to talk about here but these 2 lines has a deep meaning :)


On sunday night, right after performing Isya' prayer, my eyes teared while looking at Alya  who's asleep. I'm not sure the reason of the tears but I remember that it was a feeling of happiness and thankful at that time.

Anger

This entry was meant to be posted on Wednesday, 5/12/12....

I have a very bad temper..Seriously, if I say this to my friends and colleagues, they wouldn't believe it...but ask my family, Miel;they know how quick I can snap or get angry over certain things. whem I'm with my friends and at work, I could control my anger..Even with users, no matter how annoying they get sometimes..but today, I'm seriously pissed off with one of the manager in my dept..I don't know if I should talk about her **t***e** here.. I think I shall not..simply because she's not worth it to talk about on my blog!!!..So I will just leave it here and ignore her behavioral problem....................

I have another problem..difficulties to wake up from sleep..haha..i know it's norm for us to feel lazy and  most of the time we practically drag ourselves off the bed in the morning..for me is the same too..I tend to wake late for work and have Miel keep repeating this until we get in the car, "Cepat cepat, sudah lambat"..there were times where he got pretty annoyed and started shouting..haha..it's not only about getting up late which is causing us to be late to work..but it's the process of preparing for work-wash Alya's dirty clothes, wash and sterilize the pumping gadgets and feeding bottles, etc at 6.30am when i'm actually supposed to be dressed up in my office attire and ready for work..In the beginning when Alya was around 2 months, I was "rajin"-pumping at 3am, getting up early, etc..All of sudden after couple months, got lazier :P..but now things are changing(hope so)..starting last Thursday, I was able to settle all the household chores before going to bed and also succeeded in attempting tandem pumping..The result: I felt good going to bed with "hati yang senang"..and even waking up in the morning was not so difficult. Thanks to myself for managing to push myself further and change for better..and also thanks to a member of KIM(Kump Ibu Menyusu) in Facebook whom I have engaged to share my breastfeeeding journey  and also to talk about on how to exclude formula milk at least until the age of 2 and boost up my milk production

How much do I miss it?

Very very very much..I miss blogging..seriously, I just realized today morning how much I missed it..So many happenend for the past 7 months(from the time of my last post in April)..good things, bad things, happy and sad moments..With having so much in my head and heart that I need to pour out, I'm stuck on what I should talk about..about Alya Zahra?..Miel(nak ckp pasal ape :P)??..My breastfeeding journey??..Family and friends??..My so-called Everyday-is-a-happy-day Life??..Probably I should take one step at a time.. Let's start with my "penyeri hidupku"- the heart of my life: Alya Zahra..Alya has turned "1" in Sept..She's now 1 year 2 months and 11 days..big girl already :D..She has started to walk right after her birthday and we have been running after her ever since! No matter how many times she fell and there were couple of times she got injured(she fell face forward and her teeth/gums bleed) and cried uncontrollably, yet she never stopped..she continued with her still unstable walk..Alya is still on mother's milk and starting October I have introduced formula milk..again..I'm not very happy with this as my goal, dream, wish was to feed her with mother's milk until she reaches the age of 2. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to do so because I was down with a very bad diarrhea, gastric, headaches and vomiting. Thus, these are the reasons my milk production was reducing and was not enough for Alya..Will talk on the BF part on another post. Let's continue on our princess here...Alya has a very poor appetite for solid food from the day I started solids on her. At least from 7months until 9 months plus, she was taking solid foods well..mainly porridge made with vegetables and chicken..Alya was also an eczema baby..So at one point I  had to stop all those food she was allergic to especially chicken and fish..After she's 10months old, she wasn't interested in food at all..biscuits, rice, etc..It really depends on her mood...She eats very little and she has become really thin but alhamdullilah, her weight was an average weight and she always been in a good health and active child...And did I mention Alya is a fast learner?..She can pick up some things that you say to her pretty quick.There was once my father in law said to her in Tamil, "What is my(father in law)'s name? and he mentioned his name to her..and she said it right away..super cute!...She can say "Mummy", "Atta", "Ma", "Pappa" and some of my family member's name...She's also a talkative and you can just listen to her chatterring and singing in baby language the whole day and feel so entertained...One surprising character of Alya is she's get over excited watching football on tv..She screams excitedly, jump and laugh while watching football..No 1 Football Supporter..Supporter2 MU, Liverpool , etc confirm kalah dgn Alya..Miel is so proud of this..Hmm, looks like Miel already dpt "geng bola" :)..

PS:Semoga Alya Zahra membesar menjadi anak yang bijak, baik budi bicara and solehah.

Measles

Poor Alya is down with Measles..She was having fever last two days and when we took her to the clinic yesterday, doctor confirmed she has Measles..Hope you get well soon sayang...

PS: I'll get a little worked up if Alya falls sick due to previous incident where she was down with viral fever during 1 month old..Hope Allah protect her always...

Why it took so long....?

Why it took so long for me to start blogging again? The main reason is I'm super busy with my Alya and the other reason is I never find time to blog.Simply put, I was just too lazy! :P...I don't even have enough time to layan Alya..Alya will be turning 7 months soon..She's growing healthy and becoming more active by days..Alya is a friendly baby..Because of this everyone is so fond of her..She enjoys going out and i think she seldom gets tired because I notice she's more active even after a day out...and her sleeping time is still lesser..that has never changed from day 1..only difference is she sleeps well at night and only wakes up for feeding..cute thing is she cries softly with her eyes closed..a sign that she is hungry...Alya has also started on solids(cereal, biscuits and congee)..She's not loving it that much..I was a little worried earlier. When Miel and I took her to her Pediatrician for her checkup(she was down with flu and cough), the doctor claims that for her age she should be drinking more than 20 ounce(from the time I leave to work until I reach home in the evening). He said it's ok and not worry on her milk consumption amount and food intake since she's in good condition and she looks perfectly all right..Now, she's taking solids better than when she started. But she still prefers breast milk.Alya is the type who drinks for a short time but often..Typically, she drinks for about 5 minutes(sometimes lesser!) and then she gets up starts eying what to get her hands on..I have tried to feed her more but she doesn't take it..so I leave it up to her..Feed her as often as she wants..and not even once I complained..except the time when she drinks while she's sleeping and she takes a longer time and I had to pee..hehe..Alhamdullilah, my milk supply has increased.. People claim that milk supply reduces once the baby starts on solid and reaches 6 or 7 months old..But thankfully, I was very determined to go on and provide the best for Alya..Though I had difficulties to wake up middle of the night to do pumping and I pump today for tomorrow's supply, syukur alhamdullilah, I still managed it. There was once my milk supply was low and there was not enough milk for her on that day, my MIL gave her formula milk..and surprising thing is Alya didn't even take it and she starved and waited for her mum to come back home..Pity her :(..But then she's one smart baby right?..Knows what's best for her :)...Indeed, all these comes from Allah :)..Alya, Amma will do my best for you and Insya Allah may my wish and dream to BF you for 2 years will be fulfilled..

PS: Headache is back again..on and off.. i think because I just had potato bun and milo for breakfast..and it's not enough for me :P

Proud to BF

Alhamdullillah
that's what I say when I'm able to breastfeed Alya eventhough I had to mix formula milk(I'm working towards to breastfeed Alya exclusively. Insya Allah, may my goal come true..Amin :))
that's what I say after every pumping session eventhough through a pumping session I only managed to get 0.5 - 1 ounce

I'm proud to be a mother and proud to breastfeed Alya. Hopefully with the support of Miel, family, friends and mothers out there, I and Alya will be able to endeavor this journey of breastfeeding for 2 years.

Simply Loving Spectra

Alhamdullilah, these few days ever since I started using Spectra Dew 300 and consistently pumping and having a positive mindset, i managed to keep at least 25 auns of ebm stock(ebm stocked on fri, sat and sun)...it's more than enough for Alya to drink in a day:)..before this, i get only about 7 auns-10 auns per day, and I had to mix formula milk.Nevertheless, Avent manual pump has been serving me very well for 3 months. It's  really good and comfortable but having an electric pump(spectra) has made the pumping process a lot more easier for a working mum like me. Hopefully, i can continue to provide EBM stock for Alya and of course, continue breastfeeding her:)..I simply love and enjoy what I'm doing..Proud to be a mum and to provide the best for my darling Alya..now there are 4 things that make me content:

1-Alya

2-BF

3-Pumping and

4-Cloth diapers

hihihihi :)