Mixed Feelings on a Raya Day

This year's Raya Haji is the one that I have been looking forward too because it's mine and hubby's first celebration of Raya..So I was really excited and happy..but I was feeling a little sad too due to missing my parents..the eve of Raya, while I was helping my mother in law in the kitchen, she asked, "are you missing your parents?"..I guess she could see it on my face..and an emo me started to have the teary eye again...then she said to me, "don't be sad..your parents didn't got anywhere..they went for Haj..you must pray for their well-being and not be sad ...you tell me what ur mum will cook and do for you during Raya and I will do that for you..."..It was simple words said by her but it was so comforting..Perhaps because she's also a mother to me :)..I told her not to tell my hubby about this and she laughed..didn't want him to know that I cried..but then later he found out...he could see it so clearly on my face..Somehow I wasn't good at hiding my sad looking face this time..hmmm...Later on that Raya afternoon, Ma called few times to mine and hubby's number..but we didn't notice the calls because the phones were in the room and we were at the living room...When I realized the missed calls, I was so disappointed for not keeping the phone next to me..Hubby and I kept the phone close to us, waiting if there might be calls again from Ma..finally the call came and I was so happy to talk to her..Ma spoke to hubby and mother in law after that..I wonder what she said to hubby because she talked to him for few minutes..I didn't ask..it's between her and her son in law :)..Before hanging up the phone, I spoke to Ma again..and I could hear her voice started to change..I knew she's crying..and  I couldn't hold back my tears too..we said farewell to each other..and hang up the phone..I walked up to my room quickly, closed the door behind me, and let the tears flow..Crying do make you feel better..because that's what I felt..I felt better after the tears poured out..Though I was sad, I was actually happy to hear Ma's voice..I will always pray for their well-being..and hope everything goes smoothly for them throughout their Haj pilgrimage..

Lonely Home

 I have been finding some time to update my blog since last week but I was too busy..fuhh, being a wife and an IT support at the same time, is indeed a very challenging task..But Alhamdullilah, so far so good..I am able to cope..I hope I'm doing good as a Wife and a daughter in law..hehe..Anyway the thing I wanted talked about here is that last week Wednesday I decided to go to my parent's place  to take the new clothes Ma bought for me and hubby for Hari Raya Haji. The clothes were bought before she and Pa left for Haj.  I didn't take it earlier because my brother need to change hubby's shirt size..Few hours before leaving from work, my sister called and asked if I'm going to the pasar  malam..Since we are running low on groceries stuff at my in law's home, I agreed to take her with me. After buying the stuffs at the pasar malam, my sister accompanied me to parents' home. My bro was at home so I was really glad to see him..My sister in law was sick and she has been staying at her mother's place..The moment I stepped into the house, I realized how much I missed 'this' home and my parents..Home was so quiet, full of silence...As I went up the stairs and walked into my room, my eyes started to tear..(arghh there it goes again..I'm always an emo until today)..I took my stuffs and head down the stairs, spoke to my brother for few minutes, and left Home..I missed it but I couldn't stay any longer in the 'empty' Home..so empty without the 2 wonderful souls..

Missing Ma and Pa

Syukur Alhamdullilah, my parents wish to perform the Haj has come true. They departed on Monday and have reached Jeddah safely on Tuesday. Yesterday, my dad called and he said they have performed the first umrah and as for the accommodation and food, everything is good..Mum was not next to my dad when he called..so didn't get a chance to talk to her yet..I was really expecting to hear her voice..After few hours, I received call from my bro..He spoked to mum and he said mum sounded really excited :)..Yeah, she have been waiting for this opportunity..I doakan, hopefully everything goes smoothly for my parents and may they reach home safely...

Pa, Ma, we are all waiting for you :)

Best tak?

Today I went to check on the system problem faced by one of the dept's HOD..He's been having this error poping up each time he starts his pc..and due to I was held up at the DR(disaster recovery) site the whole of last week, I couldn;t attend to his problem immediately...The moment I entered his room, he said "Wahh, awak ni skrg dah kurus"...i laughed and thought to myself, "dah mula En.A ni"..he was busy interviewing me and there was one question that he asked me that i had to control my laughter. He asked, "Kahwin best x?"..and I answered, "Besttt"...and he laughed loud :P...
The main reason why I mentioned the situation above is not about the joke..It is about how a person in a higher rank is so friendly and humble to an ordinary staff like me..I find it difficult to see someone who's holding a high position in company is so down to earth..Probably Mr.A is too outspoken sometimes but what matters is , he treats everyone the same and he respects the lower rank staffs..The world will be a better place to live in if there are more people like En.A..don't you think so??