Mixed Feelings on a Raya Day

This year's Raya Haji is the one that I have been looking forward too because it's mine and hubby's first celebration of Raya..So I was really excited and happy..but I was feeling a little sad too due to missing my parents..the eve of Raya, while I was helping my mother in law in the kitchen, she asked, "are you missing your parents?"..I guess she could see it on my face..and an emo me started to have the teary eye again...then she said to me, "don't be sad..your parents didn't got anywhere..they went for Haj..you must pray for their well-being and not be sad ...you tell me what ur mum will cook and do for you during Raya and I will do that for you..."..It was simple words said by her but it was so comforting..Perhaps because she's also a mother to me :)..I told her not to tell my hubby about this and she laughed..didn't want him to know that I cried..but then later he found out...he could see it so clearly on my face..Somehow I wasn't good at hiding my sad looking face this time..hmmm...Later on that Raya afternoon, Ma called few times to mine and hubby's number..but we didn't notice the calls because the phones were in the room and we were at the living room...When I realized the missed calls, I was so disappointed for not keeping the phone next to me..Hubby and I kept the phone close to us, waiting if there might be calls again from Ma..finally the call came and I was so happy to talk to her..Ma spoke to hubby and mother in law after that..I wonder what she said to hubby because she talked to him for few minutes..I didn't ask..it's between her and her son in law :)..Before hanging up the phone, I spoke to Ma again..and I could hear her voice started to change..I knew she's crying..and  I couldn't hold back my tears too..we said farewell to each other..and hang up the phone..I walked up to my room quickly, closed the door behind me, and let the tears flow..Crying do make you feel better..because that's what I felt..I felt better after the tears poured out..Though I was sad, I was actually happy to hear Ma's voice..I will always pray for their well-being..and hope everything goes smoothly for them throughout their Haj pilgrimage..

Lonely Home

 I have been finding some time to update my blog since last week but I was too busy..fuhh, being a wife and an IT support at the same time, is indeed a very challenging task..But Alhamdullilah, so far so good..I am able to cope..I hope I'm doing good as a Wife and a daughter in law..hehe..Anyway the thing I wanted talked about here is that last week Wednesday I decided to go to my parent's place  to take the new clothes Ma bought for me and hubby for Hari Raya Haji. The clothes were bought before she and Pa left for Haj.  I didn't take it earlier because my brother need to change hubby's shirt size..Few hours before leaving from work, my sister called and asked if I'm going to the pasar  malam..Since we are running low on groceries stuff at my in law's home, I agreed to take her with me. After buying the stuffs at the pasar malam, my sister accompanied me to parents' home. My bro was at home so I was really glad to see him..My sister in law was sick and she has been staying at her mother's place..The moment I stepped into the house, I realized how much I missed 'this' home and my parents..Home was so quiet, full of silence...As I went up the stairs and walked into my room, my eyes started to tear..(arghh there it goes again..I'm always an emo until today)..I took my stuffs and head down the stairs, spoke to my brother for few minutes, and left Home..I missed it but I couldn't stay any longer in the 'empty' Home..so empty without the 2 wonderful souls..

Missing Ma and Pa

Syukur Alhamdullilah, my parents wish to perform the Haj has come true. They departed on Monday and have reached Jeddah safely on Tuesday. Yesterday, my dad called and he said they have performed the first umrah and as for the accommodation and food, everything is good..Mum was not next to my dad when he called..so didn't get a chance to talk to her yet..I was really expecting to hear her voice..After few hours, I received call from my bro..He spoked to mum and he said mum sounded really excited :)..Yeah, she have been waiting for this opportunity..I doakan, hopefully everything goes smoothly for my parents and may they reach home safely...

Pa, Ma, we are all waiting for you :)

Best tak?

Today I went to check on the system problem faced by one of the dept's HOD..He's been having this error poping up each time he starts his pc..and due to I was held up at the DR(disaster recovery) site the whole of last week, I couldn;t attend to his problem immediately...The moment I entered his room, he said "Wahh, awak ni skrg dah kurus"...i laughed and thought to myself, "dah mula En.A ni"..he was busy interviewing me and there was one question that he asked me that i had to control my laughter. He asked, "Kahwin best x?"..and I answered, "Besttt"...and he laughed loud :P...
The main reason why I mentioned the situation above is not about the joke..It is about how a person in a higher rank is so friendly and humble to an ordinary staff like me..I find it difficult to see someone who's holding a high position in company is so down to earth..Probably Mr.A is too outspoken sometimes but what matters is , he treats everyone the same and he respects the lower rank staffs..The world will be a better place to live in if there are more people like En.A..don't you think so??

Current song addiction #1

For some reason, lately I get excited when this song goes on radio or TV

Not sure why..;)

1 month and 3 days..unbelieveable???..Believe it! ;)

I used to call him Mr.Fiancee and now I address him as Mr.Husband....still can't believe that I got one step ahead in my life that change my-all-these-years-single-title :P...It's been 1 month and 3 days,I and him got married...Lots of people, family, friends asked the same question, "How's married life"?...The same answer I give is, "Okay lahhh"..hehe..seriously I don't know what answers to give...either I replied them that or I say "So far so good"..So yeah, it's been going on good...there's still a long way to go..there will be ups and downs throughout our life..there's a lot to learn about being a wife, learn about Mr.Husband, learn about each other, learn to lead a happy,successful married life..I have faith in Allah..therefore, Insya Allah, our married life will always be filled with happiness,peace and harmony..and especially in bad times, may Allah give Mr.Husband and I strength and patience to overcome any obstacle..and may our faith towards Allah will always remain..Though it's unbelievable that I'm a WIFE to a man now, but there's one thing I believe in..that I and him are meant to be together...

As the famous saying goes, "Match Made In Heaven" ;)

happy for her :)

A special occasion took place on the 3rd October..My dearest cousin @ Sil Rena( that's her famous nick name :P) engagement :)...when she told me that she was getting engaged, I was shocked, surprised but happy of course..the best part is it was just 2 weeks since I got married and the following week is her engagement...Lagi terkejut..haha..The occasion went on smoothly and she was such a happy bride on that day, despite her loose character was still there, trying to take a peak on her fiancee when he just arrived...Some things just don't change :P...I can assure you that I'm the most happiest person on earth that's she's engaged now..Only she and I knows why :)..Dear Rena, do you know I'm so happy and thankful to Allah that things are turning out well for you?..I wish you and your fiancee@soon-to-be-hubby many more happy married years..Love and appreciate each other always..and enjoy the moments of counting the days for your BIG day :)..Cherish every moment k..Love you lots loose! ;)

the forgetful me

Earlier I went out to buy breakfast and cash out some money. Tomorrow, myself, Miel and his grandma will be going to Ipoh. My MIL left to Dubai yesterday for 1 month and since all of us are working, my FIL decided to send Miel's grandma to her sister's house in Ipoh. My FIL asked Miel and I to visit my MIL's sister as well and also my youngest uncle who is staying in Kuala Kangsar.Since my credit on handphone is running low and we will be on a long journey tomorrow,  I went to the 123 convenience store for reload. I asked reload of RM20, paid the cashier and walked out. At office, I keyed in the PIN number stated on the reload receipt and I got error message on my mobile screen, "Network Problem" ..Thinking that I have keyed in incorrect PIN number, i tried again couple of times. Still failed. I started to curse the Telco service. Thought there was a problem with the Telco service I'm using. Then, I saw the name of the Telco service on the reload receipt. Darn!!!! Silly me..I accidentally purchased reload of X telco instead of Y..RM20 pulak tu!!..Asked my colleagues around who's using X..Luckily there were 2 colleagues of mine who is using it and sold the reload receipt 1 each..Nasib baik dieorg x mintak reload for free..hehehe...anyway, I don't how I can purchase X reload instead of Y..I don't even remember saying, "Nak reload X ye?" to the 123 convenience store cashier..Haih, I'm such a forgetful person...Like yesterday evening, I left the key on the main door latch of my home..caused panic to my FIL, Miel's aunty and grandma when they came back home seeing the key hanging on the latch...the panic got higher especially for my FIL when he started calling my name and  my mobile but there was no answer...I was so afraid to stay at home alone after "the unwanted incident" happened 2 weeks ago..so right after I came back from work, I switched on the living room light and fan and the kitchen light and went up straight to my room, locked the door, took my bath and laid myself on the bed..too afraid to go downstairs, I stayed in my room and slept off..which is why I didn't answer the calls..I only woke when Miel's aunty knocked on my room door. As i opened the door, I saw Miel's aunty and my FIL was standing next to her.. I noticed the relief look on my FIL's face...I'm so sorry for making you all worried and panicked. I learned my lesson and next time, I will be extra careful and will try my level best not to be so forgetful :P...and I have to learn to be brave...Now I wish, I learned martial arts..I'm sure i will be more brave..Not only that, I can karate anyone who cari pasal with me..:P

Late

Miel just called 10 mins ago to inform me that he'll be coming back home late. It's 8pm and he's still at office and I guess he will reaching home later than usual. Felt a little disappointed about that. I'm already missing him. Though I'm busy at work or focused on other stuffs, I constantly think of him. Ever since I was back at work after a long marriage leave, I tend to look at the clock anxiously, waiting for it to strike 5.10pm..I want to be at home before he comes back..before we got married, I told him that I want to be at home and wait for him to come back from work..and that's what I'm doing now :)...Hopefully he won't be so late today..and hopefully he will reach home safely..and I will wait for him impatiently to come back home..hehe:P

Thankful

I'm thankful that our wedding turn out well..I'm thankful to see all the happy faces of family and friends-happy with our wedding :)..I'm thankful that I'm welcomed wholeheartedly into my "new" family...I'm thankful that my new( in laws) family treats me well, loves and cares for me...I'm thankful to spend the rest of my life with you,Insya Allah..I'm thankful to have you in my life..I'm thankful to love you and to be loved by you..I'm thankful for everything Allah has given to me...Good or bad, I'm always thankful for everything..What ever unwanted incident that has happened or will happen in future, may Allah gives us and both our families enough strength to pull through it..Always believe that everything happens for a reason : Setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya...May we and both our families be blessed with peace, health, longevity and prosperity...

Love is one of the most subtle blessings that the Most Merciful One has bestowed upon humanity. It exists in everyone as a seed. This seed germinates under favorable circumstances and, growing like a tree, blossoms into a flower, and finally ripens, like a fruit, to unite the beginning with the end.  

Author :
M. Fethullah Gülen
Book Reference :
Pearls of Wisdom

Hati sebak

Yesterday evening, while I was in the car, I decided to call my dad to let him know that I'm already going back home.But the call couldn't get through. No coverage at the basement parking. When I was about to reverse my car, I saw my dad  through the side mirror, walking towards his car. I wind down my window and called him, Pa!!....I spoke to him for few seconds, salam his hands and he hugged me :)..As I was leaving the parking lot, all of sudden I felt "sebak"...Hati ni rasa sebak...I miss having him sitting next to me while I'm driving...Miss the conversations, and of course I miss the arguments we used to have..Thinking about it makes me laugh and makes me miss my dad even more...It was a sad feeling but I didn't cry..Felt that way until I reach home..3 weeks has passed and I still miss my parents and family...One thing for sure, I'm really thankful I'm not living that far from them...Could go visit them easily :)...

Article: Did I Marry The Right Person?

I was looking for this article emailed by my cousin. Coincidentally while I'm searching for an email by one of my vendors through my office mails, I found the article that I have been looking for....

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

Those who are still single may learn something from here....
Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage....
DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?
During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question.
She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said,
"It depends. Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love...

Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience.

But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades.

It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;
IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable...you can "make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

See told ya there's no Mr. Right :P

Leaving Home and Going to a New Home

Our beliefs, customs or tradition is that a newly married woman leaves her parents home and goes on to live at her in laws. Very rare the husband stays with his wife's family. After mine and Miel's reception, we went to his parents house for the cake cutting ceremony..When we reached his parents' home, we got stopped by his cousins..they won't let us in the house until Miel "pay" them..It's like you have to pay toll only then the crossbar will raise...It was really interesting to watch Miel being 'bullied' by them..hehehe..Finally, after putting up playful arguments, Miel's eldest aunty came to our rescue :)..the first step into my parents in law's house i felt really nervous but welcomed..so that was really good :)..after all the ceremonies, myself and Miel head to my parents house to stay there for few days..finally the day to leave my home, my family has come..it was really difficult for me..I was sobbing silently to myself and Miel knew that I'm feeling sad...The night before he said to me, "Esok nanti jgn menangis k"...I said, "I'll try but it's gonna be difficult" and he said, "Yeah, I know"...In the evening on that day, his cousin sister, sister and grandma came to jemput Miel and I to his parents' hse..Before leaving, my mum already prepared a game for both of us..it's called congkak..but it's unlike those traditional Malay congkak...everyone said it's unique :)..and the result of the match?..It was a DRAW..it's very rare you get draw in congkak game..my mum and grandma wanted to have a rematch..but I didn't want coz i'm happy with the result :)...when the moment to leave came, my mum hugged me..and both of us started to cry...I sobbed when i hugged each of my family member whom was there..everyone had teary eye..for some reason i felt really difficult to part from my brother and sister in law..When I hugged my sis in law, i hugged her tightly...and when i salam my bro, i held on to his hand and i didn't want to let go..only then i realized how attached i am to them especially my sis in law whom just came into our family a year ago...I was really sad to leave my family behind but Miel was there next to me...He consoled me and understood what I was going through...last week Miel and I stayed for 2 nights at my parents' house(some unwanted incident took place during this time, will talk more about it on the next post)and i didn't shed a tear when i leave..I guess i got over it...even then, deep inside, I still miss my parents, siblings and my home..No matter what, I know my family will always be there for me..they have done so much and I really appreciate it! :)

16 days

It has been exactly 16 days since I last updates my blog. Curious to know where I have been missing these 16 days...well it was all for good :)...Many important events took place in my life..One of the most important ones is my Wedding..yeap, I'm offically a Mrs now...Mrs. AR( Miel's real name :P)..I've been holding the title for 11 days and Insya Allah the title remains for the rest of my life...both of us have been counting the days and finally the moment came....the moment that we have been waiting for..really wonder how fast times flies...I remember 1 day before our wedding, Miel called in the middle of the night..He said he's sleepy but he couldn't fall asleep..I couldn't sleep either..I guess both of us were really nervous thinking about the next day..On my Mehndi night, I wasn't nervous at all but I was nervous that night and the nervousness got even worse during the solemnization(nikah)..but when I saw Miel after he have succesfully 'lafaz' nikah, there was only one thing running in my mind..I'm a wife now...and there's my husband standing in front of me..at that moment itself all I felt was calm :)....the nikah, reception and other ceremonies went on smoothly...syukur Alhamdullilah..I always believe that with parents and families blessings, everything will turn out well...the interesting part about our wedding is that the ceremonies both families conducted to welcome the newly weds..you could see the happiness on the faces of family members..the smiles and laughter..It's just PRICELESS..all these I will cherish for the rest of my life..thank you so much to everyone-my parents, parents in law, my family and my in laws family whom whole heartedly accepted me, friends and of course not forgetting my Love, my hubby...Looking forward to many happy years of living life with you :)

PS:on the next entry, shall talk about how diffcult it was to leave my parents, my siblings...my home

On A Rainy Day

I was driving to work with my dad next to me like usual. Just about few kilometers away from my office, the cars on the road started to slow down due to the rain. The distance between the car in front of me and mine was about 2 or 3 cars lengths. I notice the brake light on the car  and I stepped on the brake. But my car kept moving and it's not stopping. I panicked and as my car kept moving, I thought I'm going to hit the car which a BMW..Within that few seconds, there were many things running in my mind at the same time..Just few inches away from the bumper of that car, my car finally stopped. I don't know what  happened. I know I didn't step on the accelerator. My foot was on the brake. My dad said what was on my mind, "Careful, your wedding is nearing"..and I could feel my eyes teared. I guess I got panicked that drops of tears started to flow. Saying syukur to Allah that nothing bad happened and I continued driving and reached office safely. Pa asked me to step couple of times on the brake pad so that it will clear off the water. and after doing that, I could feel the bake pads got harder. It seems on a rainy day, the waters tend to splash up on the brake pads, making them slippery.

Ya Allah, please protect me, my family and my loved ones from calamity, disaster..Lindungi la kami dari segala bala, bencana, penyakit dan musibah, Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku...Amin

Mr. Right

When I ask some of my friends especially the girls whom are still single, if they have anyone special, they will answer, "Haven't found Mr. Right yet"...this is like the common answer you can expect from most single girls..Trust me, there's no such thing as Mr. Right..you can go hunting to any corner of the world but you will never find one..It's about finding the imperfect person and seeing and accepting the person as who he is..Life will be so much easier and less disappointing if you don;t have high expectations towards your partner (someone taught me this and it took me sometime to agree with it..hehe)..If both parties are able to accept  flaws and still love each other unconditionally, then you have found your soul mate or  maybe your Mr.Right..So I have found my mine. Have you? :)

Ma

All I am, or can be, I owe to my angel mother ~~By Abraham Lincoln~~

 

Ma, I'm your child, your daughter..no matter what, you don't and never should say sorry to me..Even if you think what you said was not right or I got upset with anything you said, I never expect apologizes from you..You are the best mother I could ever ask for..You have all rights on me simply because I was in you for 9 months, and you nurtured me and took care of me and provide me the best..You will always be my inspiration especially now when I'm going to be married and will someday have a child of my own..I always pray to Allah may you and Pa have a long life and may all your wishes and dreams come true...

 

Ma,I will always love you!!

I appreciate for anything you do for me..Of course, I do..I'm truly sorry for changing the plans..I wanted to do it as you wished..and I didn;t mean to change it..I'm sorry...

Last Single Sunday

For months I have been counting the days..from 2 months, to 4 more Sundays, then 2 more Sundays, and now there's no more Sundays left to be counted..At this same day next week, at this hour, Miel will be with me..officially as my husband :)..I'm having all sorts of mixed feelings now, thinking that there's only few more days left for my BIG day..happy,nervous,worried,excited,..sometimes feeling a little panicky...People say it;s normal, everyone goes through it, bla bla bla..but it's easier to say it..only i know what I feel inside..Just hoping everything turns out well..that's all..:)
Now it's about my family i;m thinking about..my parents especially..after I get married, I will be moving out from my home and will be living with Miel and my new family...so I'm already starting to miss my parents so much..I'm going to miss the arguments I have with them(always! :P)..I;m going to miss going to work with my dad..you know among my siblings i'm the closest one to my parents..probably because I'm the anak manja of the family..hehe....Ever since I started going to work with my dad, I have became even more closer to him...We will be talking about work, life, general stuffs..sometimes through out the journey, both of us will be silent..layan fikiran masing-masing...sometimes I will be talking and he won;t even reply..but I know he is listening..and when he;s talking especially about his work, I will be listening..and of course there are arguments..that one mesti ada!..haha..usually it's arguments about my driving..my dad thinks i drive fast and not careful...we still have that argument until today :)..as for my my dear mother, whom is also my best friend, I'm going to miss talking stories with her..she;s also my gossiping partner!..hehe..What else I can say about my mum, she's an angel :)...Pa and Ma, I'm sorry for eveything..I know I have hurt your feelings and behaved disrespectful to both of you...To me, both of you are the greatest parents in the world...You have done so much for me and I know if you will always be there for me...I will always love both of you..and no matter what, I will always be your anak manja :)..

Pa, I know you;re so proud to be  "Father of the bride"..Reminds me of Steve Martin;s movie :)

Perginya Ramadhan, Datangnya Syawal

Thursday was the last day of puasa..end of this year's Ramadan..the night before, like usual myself and my family went to surau to perform Tarawih prayers...unlike the whole Ramadan month, most of them did not come to the surau that night..Semua dah balik kampung..sunyi je surau tanpa para jemaah yg biasa hadir..rasa rindu terhadap mereka pun ada..yea la,sama-sama berjuang untuk mendapat keredhaan Allah swt, sama-sama berusaha untuk mencapai ketaqwaan seperti mana yang diperkatakan oleh Imam pada hari ni semasa khutbah Aidilfitri..Sesungguhnya benar kata Imam, Allah menjadikan Ramadhan untuk kita mencapai ketaqwaan..Allah Maha Besar..sentiasa memberi peluang kepada hamba-hambanya untuk bertaubat, untuk memperbaiki diri, untuk berhijrah daripada melakukan perkara2 yg dilarang..Walaupun kita rasa rindu terhadap Ramadhan yg telah pergi, datangnya Syawal, kita menyambutnya dengan penuh kesyukuran dan kegembiraan kerana telah mencapai kemenangan di bulan Ramadhan..Syukur kepada Allah kerana panjang umur kita, dapat menunaikan ibadat kpdnya..dapat bertaubat..dapat memohom ampun atas dosa2 yang kita lakukan..Khutbah Imam pada pagi Aidilfitri ini ialah tentang nafsu, musuh utama manusia..nafsu sentiasa mendorong kita arah jalan yg salah..sentiasa menghalang kita daripada melakukan kebaikan..bukan mudah bagi kita lawan dengan nafsu,sering kali kita tewas tetapi jika iman kuat dan kita berusaha untuk "take control of" nafsu ni, Insya Allah, kita akan mencapai kemenangan..Allah akan permudahkan segala-galanya untuk
kita jika kita percaya akanNya, jika kita berdoa, jika kita berusaha..

Note:Diri ni bukannya hamba yang sempurna..diri ni ada cacat celanye..diri ni tidak terkecuali
dari melakukan dosa..apa jua yang diperkatakan di entry dalam blog saya ni,adalah diambil dari apa
yang saya pelajari sepanjang Ramadhan ni dan juga summary dari Khutbah pagi ni..Jika ada tersilap cakap,
mohon maaf..semoga Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa dan memberi kerberkatan dan kerahmatan kpd kita semua..

PS:started the entry in English but after that was comfortable to say what I feel above in Malay language

Forgetful

Being such a forgetful person is really troublesome sometimes..I forgot to take pictures of Miel's gifts which I sent to him yesterday..Dah siap bungkus/wrap the gift box, baru teringat lupa nak snap picture of the gifts and the box after wrapping..the condition of the box after wrapping was so cincai looking (I'm bad at wrapping gifts)...But I feel delighted coz I managed to post the gift...I have been cracking my head how to deliver his gift..tried contacting the available courier services in Klang Valley and they mentioned I need to go to the nearest branch..I thought can just call them up and asked them to come to office to collect..but you can;t do that..you need to open an account with the respective courier service company..so using the reliable Ms.Google, I looked for the nearest branch and i found  MAILBOXES ETC..it's actually a franchiser of retail shipping, postal and business service centres..and all these 2 years living in my housing area, I didn't know there's a courier service center here..so I quickly drove there(after wrapping the gift "very nicely") worried that I won;t be in time to send in the gift for pick up..Audrey, the friendly lady working there suggested that she will help me to wrap the gift with brown paper coz she's afraid the pick up people will open up the gift wrapper(for checking purpose) ...and the charges were not that expensive either...She explained to me that Miel should be getting the gift by today or latest by tomorrow..After paying up and thanking Audrey, I walked out of the shop with a big smile on myself...So relief that I was able to send the gift

And today afternoon, I called Miel. I wasn't expecting him to receive the gift today coz Audrey told me that the parcel(gift) might be reaching Miel on Thursday since it's the Raya season..When I said bye and wanted to hang up the phone, Miel said something but it wasn;t clear. So i asked him what is it..And he said, "Thanks for the gift"..I kept quiet for a second and immediately thought why didn't he tell me the moment he received it(well we had little argument about that..when i think about it now, i feel wanna laugh..haha)..The most important thing is he likes the gift..As long as he;s happy, I;m happy too :)..Miel, don;t worry..even if you didn;t say this, I won't be sending surprises to your office anymore..Lepas kawen, nak bagi gift pun direct je..dah x de surprises sume..hahaha.. oh yeah he just called and he said he already listened to the songs that I compiled for him..don;t know why I felt shy to hear his comments about the cd..so i changed the topic..probably coz the songs are a bit lovey dovey..haha..whatever it is, I appreciate that Miel listened to it..Thank you, Miel :)


PS: I can;t wait to play the football one-on-one with you..hehe

RAYA!!!

Staring at the pc and totally feeling bored...Am already in Raya mood :D...but thinking about coming to work tomorrow and the next Monday and Tuesday, makes the feeling of boredom even worse..Since I;m taking long leave for wedding, I decided to not take leave for Raya..Some of my colleagues are already on leave today..Next week, myself, my colleague, the secretary and HOD are the only ones will be on the office..Lagi la tahap kebosanan akan bertambah...But the good things are there will be lesser calls from users which means less work and road will be super clear!..Boleh la F1 racing!..haha

~~I would like to wish~~

~~Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri To All The Muslims In The World~~

Super Shopper

I already informed my mum a day earlier that I need to go out( i mean go shopping) to few places..and she agreed(without any complaints..hehe)..Early in the morning, I helped to bake pineapple jam tart(oh only now I realized..I hate pineapples..anything that has pineapple in it, I totally dislike it..but pineapple tart cookies is my favorite!.. :P)..We made move from home at about 9.45 am and was already at our first destination-SACC Mall by 10am...just like how we expected,  the shops were not open..so since PKNS was just across SACC Mall and it was opened, we went there instead...Just walked few metres in that complex, looking at those pretty(and ugly) baju kurung, jubah, etc..I'm looking for a nice,black jubah..but didn;t come across a jubah that is as pretty as the one i saw in Tesco the day bfr...I  fell in love with that jubah I saw in Tesco but it was too expensive..Perhaps on the last day(on the Hari Raya night) it will be sold for cheaper price...Tu pun if my mum allowed me to go shopping again..haha...and then we head back to SACC Mall...We went straight to the particular shop at 1st floor..bought the stuffs and drove out to Subang Parade..I wanted to get an engraved pen for Miel and in Parkson, Subang Parade there are number of choices...There were even 900++ pens...I wonder what;s so special and difference between these pens and a 100 ringgit pen..Looks the same to me..Anyway, there;s this dodger blue pen that caught me eyes...The color  looks pretty unique to me compared to the other common colors such as black, red and dark blue...At first I thought of getting the fountain pen but it's like old school(Miel might claim that..hehe)...Ball point is more suitable for younger age men..that;s what I think la...I was glad that they do engraving there..and the sales girl said maximum 15 words ..but I just want 6 words to be engraved on that pen..Miel;s name on one side and my name on the other side of the pen..Aftter the sales girl have done the engraving, she showed it to me and I smiled..It looked perfect...She wrapped the pen for me and once it's done, I happily took it and my mum and I continued to our next destination-Bt Tinggi Jusco..During the journey, my mum slept in the car..and when she woke up,  we already reached Bt Tinggi...My mum was looking for cushion cover and was helping her to choose on the colors and pattern of the covers..After having a pretty tough time deciding because my mum was like "I don't know if your dad will be okay with this brown cover..don;t know if he;ll be ok with that color..this color", finally we decided on which one , paid for it and walked out of Jusco..I need to go to the gift shop to get a gift box...Luckily, I found a stylish, silver box :)..By this time, my mum whom have been patient with me since morning, have already start complaining about her knee pain...Since I've bought the things I was looking for, we decided to return home..while we were walking towards the lift, I saw the Speedy shop..I have been wanting to buy Celine Dion CD for so long....My mum was like , "Faster la, leg pain!"..Quickly I entered the shop and within 5 minutes I was out of the shop with the CD in my hand :)..Can't wait to listen to her songs while driving :)...By the time we reached home, it was already 1.45pm...Prayed Zohor and went to sleep after talking to Miel..I thought since I already called him, he won;t be calling again until tonight or tomorrow..Baru je terlelap mata, the "I wanna hold your hands" song ringing on my phone.i thought to myself,"Habis la after this cannot fall asleep..there goes my after noon nap..haih"..hehe...but even then like usual, I smiled when I answered his call...His question made me giggle..I don;t know why he felt that the tone of my voice is different since yesterday..Miel, not to worry..Am really OK..: )...Lucky you that I could fell asleep after that..If not, I would have called you back..hehe...

A tiring but happy and fun Sunday spent with my dearest mum...after all, shopping is the best therapy!!..

PS:2nd last Sunday spent as a single person :)

2nd Last Sunday

The clock will strike 12 in another 1 hour and 5 minutes..and the 2nd last Sunday will be arriving soon..which means there's only 1 more Sunday to go..before I officially become someone's wife :)...As much as you are eagerly waiting for The Day, Miel, I feel the same way too..Mean while, in this 14 days, let's enjoy our life as single ..:P

Time flies

As each day passes by, I'm getting more nervous...I hope everything will turn out well..It's an once in a lifetime event..An event that will bring you to a whole new life..A whole new life which you can't imagine how's it going to be..But deep inside, there's a believe that the new life will promise happiness,laughter,joy,love,care and many more good things. Definately, it's not going to be 'perfect' always..There's going to be ups and downs..All I hope is that myself and Miel will be able to go through it together..Together both of us will build a life that's worth living...


When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. ~Nora Ephron, When Harry Met Sally

Ramadhan, Tarawih...

Time flies so fast..Feels like Puasa just started but it's already the 23rd puasa and 24th Tarawih...feel sad that the month where we we could ask forgiveness for all the sins we have done, the month where not only we hold our self from not eating and drinking but also from lust, the month where every living Muslims who worship during this month will be rewarded ( pahala yang berkali-kali ganda) by Allah is coming to an end for this year..But Alhamdullilah, The Almighty gave me longevity for this years' Ramadhan..One of the type of worship we are advised to perform during this month is the Tarawih prayers...The Tarawih prayers is sunat so if you perform this prayers, you will get 'pahala'(reward) and if you don't, you don't gain anything. It's only once a year, and out of 365 days, this prayers only applies for 30 days. So this is our chance given to us by The Great Allah to repent, to worship, ask forgiveness for all the sins we have done, ..
Sesungguhnya peluang yang Allah berikan kepada kita yang masih hidup di dunia ini. So mari lah kita ramai-ramai sembahyang tarawih dan beribadat di bulan yang mulia ini... Mudah-mudahan Ramadan tahun ni akan membawa kerberkatan kepada kita semua. Dan semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa2 yang kita lakukan sama ada dengan sengaja atau tidak sengaja, dan dalam keadaan sedar atau tidak sedar. Semoga dipanjangkan umur tahun hadapan agar dapat menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan Al Mubarak..AMIN

Miel,another day has passed..Now left to 2 more Sundays for our BIG day :)

Pink Watch...

Mum promised to get me a new watch for my birthday:) so last Saturday we went to Subang Parade. The actual reason we went there was because there was a Parkson warehouse sale and my dad wanted to do his Raya shopping. I didn';t find anything i like at the warehouse...just bought a track suit..and then decided to walk around the mall..left my parents busy choosing clothes in the warehouse:P..I'm actually 'hunting' gift for Miel..I can't find the ideal gift over here..found it online, on some overseas website but they don't deliver to Malaysia:(...As much as I expected, I didn;t find anything suitable to present to him in subang parade..so i decided to shop for myself pulak..hehe..saw some nice handbags in parkson but it was a little too pricey(what to do, have to save money:P)...then i came to the dorothy perkins clothes and the jeans was on promotion..tried on the size 8 and it got stuck at the hips!..asked the sales girl for a different size and the size __ fits me( not planning to reveal the size k..haha)..happily paid for it and went to look for my mum who was sitting at the chair, waiting impatiently for me and my dad...earlier while i was walking around the mall, she called my mobile and grumbling over the phone, "Where are you??!!..you planning to go around the mall the whole day and not go back home..your dad pulak still shopping"...I thought to myself, "Maaaaa, not again...."..hehe...when we walked out of parkson, there was a shoes+handbags shop..of course I couldn't resist myself from not going in:P...this time my mum found something she realllyyyyy liked-a handbag :)...the price was ok..around rm150..after discount..she said she wants to use the money I gave her..she was thinking twice if she should get it because of the price..she said, "Never mind la, expensive la"..then we walked out of the shop..we were just 2 feet away from the shop when suddenly she was like, "The handbag is nice la..I want to get it" and went into the shop again...I burst into laughter..hahah..she's improving in shopping matters :P...after that went to look for a watch for me..but the watch which I saw in sunway pyramid 2 weeks ago is not available over here..not even in it's own boutique..Therefore,I suggested to go to pyramid..Unfortunately, I couldn't remember which floor the watch shop is located..We were like walking up and down the escalators..and my parents started complaining tired of walking..luckily i found the shop before they start getting fed up..hehe..I tried a number of watches and finally below is the watch i choose( it's pink colorrrrrrr...hehe) and I simply love it!! ..thanks Ma..Love you lots!! :)

 My new pink watch :)

and I bought this perfume in Body Shop

sweet, floral, romantic smell ..love it! :)

overdose of happiness

Due to an overdose of happiness for the past 2 days(25th and 26th), I over slept after sahur today..hehe..Luckily, Selangor is on public holiday today..so the road was clear...no traffic jam...everyday macam ni kan best...Anyway, I just realized that there are two unexpected, happy things happened this week, which was on the 25th and 26th...Syukur Alhamdullilah..:) (you can read my earlier posts to know what are those things)
 

Becoming 26 on the 26th

It's the last day of celebrating this day as a single person...after this, will be celebrating with my other half as his wife..:)..Insya Allah...Received my first wish for this year from my other half@Miel..He asked me "Do you want me to say something"..I laughed and i said usually i ask u that..and he said "well, for a change"...only after he wished me, I knew why he asked me that Q..:)...today morning around 9am, i received a call from an unknown number...I thought to myself this must be another call from some company trying to promote some discount card..I have been getting such calls lately..with an irritated tone i answered the call...the person asked "Ni Cik.... ke"...."Saye dr "I-do-not-know-what-is-the-name-" delivery service."Cik, ni nak hantar brg, betul ke alamatnye*and he read out my office address*...kul 10.30 nanti saye nak hantar brg, cik ade kat ofis x?...I answered, "Ade", and i asked "Nak hantar brg ape ye"...The guy said,"kad n bungkusan"..then he hung up and I thought to myself, "did i order anything online?..What i ordered??"...A close friend of mine who shares the same day as me called me to wish..I told him about this call I received from some guy from a delivery service company...and my friend replied,"Don't think I send it to you..I will never do that"...Kurang ajar my friend ni!!...then he said, "I'm very sure he(Miel) is the one who sending you something"...but I didn't agree with my friend...I said, "No la, I don't think so"..My friend said, "I bet you "He" is the one"...In my mind, I was wondering what could it be...birthday gift ke?..and it's from whom?..Miel??...or did i ordered something?..and what did i ordered??..(haha..i can even question myself what i ordered)...at 10.35am, I received call from the delivery guy saying that he's at the reception..I walked to the reception and the moment i saw the guy(which i assumed is the delivery guy) holding a bouquet of roses, i had some weird kind of feeling inside...i noticed there was a goodie bag on the table..the guy asked me to sign my name on a sheet of paper ...my hands were trembling that I can;t even sign right...I took the card,bouquet and bag filled with teddy bear and ferrero rocher chocolate..I couldn;t wait until I reach my desk that I just started ripping the card envelope..I was eager to see who's the sender..i read the message quickly and my eyes darted to the From..but there's was no name there..Instead, it was written there "the ....,who is gotta do, what....to do"...Hmmm, who could it be?..then I thought it must be Miel and i decided to give him a call.....My colleagues who notice went "wahhh, wha's the occasion?"..I smiled and replied "My ...day"...and they were like "Oh ye ke" (they forgot about it..hehe...)..I went back to my desk and called Miel right away...I asked, "Did you send me something, a gift....?"..and he replied with his usual tone(sounded a little serious actually:P).."Nope, what gift?...I said, "I received these gift from someone but I do not know who is it from"...He said,"I'm sure there's a name right"...I told him there's no name and read to him what's written on the card...and with a-very-innocent tone, he said,"If i were to send u a gift, I would have wrote my name right"...My tremble got worst...Started to wonder "Aik, who send me this...,is this some prank or something(experienced similar things bfr )?..but something said it must be Miel...I asked him again if it's really him and said that it must be him..He  replied,:"Ok la, if u think i send it, then take it that way la"..I was like "don;t la like that..it is you right..."...then he said ok la and wished me again and asked if i like the gift...That was when I went totally speechless..I never expected it..I told him that I love it and thanked him...I was smiling broadly...He successfully surprised me!...and successfully kenakan me by pretending he;s not the sender..hehe..Such a pleasant surprise:)...and i'm still in surprised,speechless, happy mode :)...I thank you for what you have done for me today..You made my day..anyway, I still can;t get over this you know, Miel...I appreciate it and I'm glad that you;re happy...I know that you are because of me being happy...Again, Thank you love...:)

PS: this time I read the message in the card again word by word, and only now I realized the message holds a deep meaning..:)

 The surprise from Miel :)

 scrumptious blueberry cheese cake..Pappa bought it..thank u Dad! :)

Syioknyeeee....;)

Yesterday, I was at my desk as usual, busy with work, staring away at the monitor screen and then from the corner of my eye, I saw my Head of Department. I turned my head and the moment I notice the papers in his hands, my lips curved into a smile. I knew what is it. It's what I and all the staffs at my company have been waiting for...Finally,it's here..My HOD came over to my place and gave the my document to me with a smile, and said "Wedding gift ni"..hehehe..Mr..., "wedding gift" from company..from you, it's different...hehe...Anyway,it's not just any ordinary document k..It's a "what-I-deserve-is-paid-off" document..syukur alhamdullilah for what I received..Indeed, rezeki(provision) is given to us by Allah...

Yummy Pretzel

Yesterday, I met up with 2 of my best buddies, Iko and Damo at my usual hang out place, Sunway Pyramid..As usual, Damo is complaining that I didn't even call him since we met on Iko's bday in July..the usual "tak boleh pakai nye" statement never fails to come out from his mouth.."Eh hanizah, now who's working?..I'm a "vetti"(it's penganggur in tamil.)..so you la have to call me..i got no money..bla bla bla.."...I malas wanna layan him on this..haha..Iko was really in hyperactive mode...mana tak hyperactive, she was excitedly doing her shopping..as for me, it wasn;t easy to control myself as there were "SALES" everywhere...I was keep telling myself, "No Hanizah, don't do it..you already spend enough"..well i guess i was able to do this since I'm getting married soon and i know i should start saving..kalau x, i would have definitely brought home 2 or 3 shopping bags..haha..Iko wanted 2 get some pretzels..and i decided to get one for myself since I have never tried it...since there were a few of varieties of Pretzels and I couldn't decide on which, Iko suggested the caramel almond Pretzel...the Pretzel was hot and warm and I was tempted to eat it but too bad I can't because I was fasting:P...Later then, I bought some toiletries stuff and bid goodbye to them as I have to leave early...spent rest of the evening sleeping and helped mum prepare for buka puasa...Luckily after tarawih prayers, I remembered about the Pretzel...and mmmm mmmmm, the combination of caramel and alamond..so sweet and yummylicious...and I'm craving for more..thanks Iko, for introducing the Pretzel to me..actually I have always wondered if it tastes nice and I never thought of trying it out :P

sedappnyeeeeee Pretzel!!!

The "Sun" is feeling gloomy

since yesterday the Sun has been feeling really gloomy,moody..Don;t know what is the concrete reason the Sun is feeling these way...Probably it's due to something that made the Sun upset..It's normal to get upset or merajuk(bunyi mcm poyo je:P)..but it;s not sensitive...If not our loved ones, with whom else we gonna sulk kan?...Hopefully the Sun will be shining brightly tomorrow though it's a Monday :P..n by the way, there's another 3 more Sundays to go..having all those mixed feelings inside...plus i can feel the cold feet is getting worse..macam nak frost bite je..haha

Oh No!!......

I'm having the Wedding/Marriage Cold Feet!!!!!

**Sweat**

1 month away...; )

Today, at 10.08am, I received a text message from Miel..It says "Exactly 1 month to our big day"..I smiled at the message..The "good things" , "the big decision" that I have been talking about in my earlier posts are about  Miel and Our Coming Soon Wedding Day :-)...So here's the story..I n Miel met on 28 February at a wedding. For me, the moment I saw him, I felt calm ..All those miserable feelings that have been residing inside me the past years, just flew away...I would say, it's more of love at the first sight for me..hehe..He got my mobile number and I was waiting patiently for his call(ye ke patient..haha)..Two days later, I received a call from him. through out our conversation, I  was smiling away. We were just having casual chats and he asked me , "What do you want in a guy?"..I answered, "Kena jawab ke"...and then he said, "I asked a question, so kena jawab la"..That was the first time he made me laugh..When I said, I want someone who is honest,understanding and will love me and take care of me, he said, "I tak honest, I tak romantic..so macam mana??"...He laughed and I just smiled(actually i didn';t even say i want a romantic guy..hehe) ..and that's when it all started. My feelings for him grew:-)...Unlike other couples out there, we hardly meet and don't "gayut" on the phone for hours.Our phone conversations most of the time last for 5-10 mins. I can call him , ask him how he is,and then hung up.Find it weird??..not for me:)...I can sit with him and not say anything and that will be like the best conversation we ever had...One day I sms-ed him-"I believe we are meant to be together"...that simple but meaningful answer made him to decide-decide to spend his life with me..He told his parents if he ever to get married, he wants to marry no one else but me(that's like soooo sweet!!)..2months later, we got engaged and in a months time, we will be tying the knot..We know each other for such a short time but what's more important is the strong feelings we have for each other.. of course, we had arguments, misunderstandings, etc. All these help us to understand each other better and prepare us for life after marriage...Miel is not the sweet talker type or gives praises and he doesn't pretend to be someone else..This my what I love about him...so yeah these past 6 months, have been truly great and wonderful..,It feels good to be happy and smiling always ...the best thing is when the reason behind my smile is Miel :)
There's this hindi movie "Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi".(a must watch movie), it means "Match made by God"...and it's true in my case..So this BIG decision is made for us and it's definitely for the best..Dear Miel, I am thankful to Allah for sending you to me..I look forward to build our lives together. Insya Allah with the blessings of our parents and Allah, we will lead a happy, prosperous life..and Miel, thank you to you for accepting me the way I am..I;m loving you and i will always love you and no one can ever replace you...and I am proud to say that I'M YOURS :-))))))

Decision Made..Right or Wrong??

 Last Saturday, I was reading this month's Reader's Digest . There's one article that caught my attention. It's about the author itself  actually. The author wanted to choose a career path right after he completed school. During his time, which was in the 80's, there were limited options. He had 2 choices: enter the corporate world(business field) or become a doctor. To enable him to make a decision, he did a placement at a multinational company for 1 month followed by a month in a hospital . He got a placement at a bank and he loved the environment. After 1 month, he went on to work at a hospital and the surroundings there was different. The hospital had an intense environment unlike the less stressful environment he experienced at the bank. He thought about the 2 experiences and realized that the business option  will win out. But not until he witnessed an accident. the author helped the victim by sending him to the hospital and fortunately, he survived. When the doctor introduced the author to the victim's family, the author saw grateful smile on their faces. The family thanked him again and again. He thought to himself, "What a feeling this was to help save a person's life!!..at the very moment, he knew  what he wanted to do for the rest of his life. He enrolled in a medical college and became a specialist doctor.  At the last paragraph of the article, the author wrote:

"we spend a lot of our time wondering about what path to take in our lives. This experience taught me that sometimes, you don't really have to worry about the big decisions. At times, these decisions are made for you- and that whatever happens is always for the best"

I have made a big decision in my life last 6 months. and just like how the author believed, I too believe that this decision is made for me and and it's for the best. if you read my last post, i mentioned that there's something good happening in my life. It has connection with the big decision that i made. tomorrow you will know it.:-)

Rain

One of my favorite thing- Rain...It's raining outside and rain always makes me feel calm and relaxed..and at this moment my all time favorite song is playing in my head..it's the Notting Hill OST : When you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating...I love watching Notting Hill and never got bored of it....There are few sweet quotes from this movie...My favorite would be this one: "For June who loved this garden from Joseph who always sat beside her." Some people do spend their whole lives together." ..Nice weather, beautiful song...and it's nice to feel good : )

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all) 

PS: One of  the songs  that reminds me of Miel :)

Something good has been going on in my life for the past 6 months..Stay tune and you will know in the next 2 days :-)

the usual tense weekday

another weekday full of tension...working life is like that..when you were in college/university you can burn the midnight oil, slog without sleeping for days(this does not apply to me; I wasn't a very hardworking student :P)..the moment you step into the working environment, your whole life changes...For example, the field that i'm working in which is more to IT Technical stuffs, i have the usual datelines to meet . We have this system where by all the users,both from the head office and branch offices can submit request related to any IT issues/problems, creation of access ID to a particular system,etc..practically, any sorts of IT related matters..so here's where we have datelines...we have to complete any requests assigned to us at the given date. Besides that, troubleshoot/provide support via the phone,email and foot(this is done in my office la)...and then my tasks also involves monitoring two major systems/software(really critical ones!!)..I deal with machines everyday(servers,pcs, etc) that.sometimes i feel that i'm working like a machine..always kena up and running...i want to go to the loo pun tak boleh, users will be asking "dari tadi call mana pergi??"..after all i was away from my desk for 5 or 10 mins!!...so this is the life of an IT-Technical person...stress!!..well any job pun is stressful actually..so since i feel stressed out now, I'm gonna pack my things and head back home!!!..haha...it's time go back!!!..yippieee!!!!..

Yesterday, I was too exhausted to look for cakoi...I have been working the past two days which means i spent my weekend at office..I straight went back home and landed on the bed and slept off until it was buka puasa time...seems like no matter how high my craving for cakoi was, I "mengalah" jugak..mengalah kepada "tidur"..haha..There was nothing much happened yesterday..just like any other day..but I came to realize about something...We, humans do make mistakes..and we learned from it...but it's best not to repeat the mistake again and again..that's how it should be..same goes for saying the wrong thing..saying it wrong once, twice is fine..but more than that might hurt the people you love..and don;t be judgmental...I also came to my senses about certain behavior of mine and in the process of changing that certain behavior/attitude...I didn't realize it all these while until yesterday...Well, I'm not an Angel :P..just a normal human being whom made lots of mistakes in life..at least it's better to realize now then never!
Anyway I'm missing Miel..The phone is in my room upstairs and I;m down here as usual "dating" with Facebook :P...I run up 2 my room, hoping there's a message from Miel..and the moment i noticed Miel's miss call , there's a relieve feeling inside of me:)...and till now each time both of us hung up, i still have the strong urge to call Miel back..and say..absolutely nothing...only with Miel, there can be a conversation without saying a single word :)

Cakoi!!

I still remember during the puasa month last year, I was craving for cakoi(if you don't know what it is, go google it :P)...Even my mum said, "macam org mengandung je, kempunan nak makan cakoi"...hahaha..and today I'm craving for it again..x kira la...in a while i wanna go back home..and then later i'm going to hunt for cakoi!!..hopefully boleh dapat la! :D

Looking at the pic below, my craving for it increases..mmmmm yummyyyyyy!!...

Working on a Sunday :(

Sunday is truly a lazy day..and it's supposed to be spent sleeping, going shopping:P, or practically do nothing...not working!! The day before we conducted a system maintenance. I came in yesterday in the evening and then went back home for buka puasa and then return back to office and left to home at 11pm..aduiiii...i thought conducting system maintenance should be solving any current problems but end up new problems arises..there's this one server that is keep restarting and don;t know what is the cause of it..and until now it's keep rebooting..so due to that, i had to come in today and build up a new server for it and so far some of the application in the server seems to be running fine(dear new server, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee don't crash k). but there are other application that's not working. so I'm waiting for my colleague to come in and have a look at it. seriously susah la working in this technical field especially when the servers crashes..and you don't have backup for it..kelam kabut la jadinye!!! and you get really stressed out when this happen...and the worst part is most of the time you had to search for the solution to the IT problem/system error yourself, sometimes vendors also can't or not able to help you at the time you needed them the most...and tambah dgn users keep calling, asking "system ade problem ke??"...nak focus on the problem or nak jawab soalan users..pening pening..so mana x tension..am i right?..anyway, seems like so far I have survived working in this field..there were many times i felt quitting..but I had to look for a new,proper job before that..let's see how long more I can become a survivor...hahaha

Unbelieveable

yeap, the title says it all..
here i am sitting in front of the monitor and typing away my first entry of my first ever blog..it's just sooo unbelievable.you see i'm not the type who love to write..and seeing myslef doing this, i''m surprised:P
i don;t know what is the exact reason that made me to decide to create a blog of my own..
and neither do i know whether i will be consistently updating my blog or just close it down after a few entries..
let's just wait and see how far will this be going on:)
I have lived in this world for 26 years and i can't be telling over here my 26 years of stories in this blog..hehe..well i would  say about some things that have been going on in my life all these years..happy,sad,good or bad..everything...so stay tuned ok :D